Gloomy Sunday.......

No, I am not referring to the Hungarian suicide song.....it is actually very gloomy today..for several reasons.....the main reason is its been raining for about 3 days now..and not going to quite until Monday or Tuesday...fortunately, i like it gloomy....rainy drizzly days are my favorite kind of days......another reason its gloomy is, ive been having health problems the last couple weeks..I didn't know what it was, but i figured it was either my blood pressure, or my blood sugars.....so I'm going to bite the bullet and go see a doctor tomorrow....probably blow every penny i have left from my paycheck..but i guess its necessary....i was checking my blood pressure the last few days with my home meter, and it read a few times at around 155 over 100! wow! i was feeling weird headed and dizzy and just generally not feeling good for the last few weeks, and i couldn't remember if i still had my home cuff..but i eventually found it....and it looks like i have high blood pressure..usual reading is around 195 over 90 ish...so hopefully I'll get a prescription tomorrow..I've been making many life changes...changing eating habits etc..hard to get any exercise when its been mostly sub zero and snow covered most of the winter, and i cant afford to join the gym..so I'll have to do jumping jacks or something..hah! last time i went to our local med center, the dumb broad that was there at the time.. refused to give me a prescription.....and my blood pressure was about the same at that time.....she said "don't drink don't smoke eat right and exercise....that will be 97 dollars please!" needless to say..i refused to pay seeing as she only gave me about 3 minutes of her time....she kept running in and out of the room to talk on the phone, and talk to friends who kept wandering into the place.....now there's a different doctor there now and he better not screw me or its the last time i ever go to that place......oh well..we'll see what happens tomorrow.....i feel good today for a change..no annoying mild headache..no dizziness or weird headedness....so we'll see what happens........my blood sugars are a bit elevated as well..don't know if my blood pressure has anything to do about it..but i can only afford so much at a time...other than that..mom is in mega nag mode so i need to conclude this blog for today...until next time....

ended something that needed ending......looking forward......

An interesting weekend so far.....I've said it before, but gave things another chance..now, its for good....needed to be.....I've let go of a past situation......I tried to make a go of it.but it just wont work....I tried to bring a bit of normalcy to a friends life....but his bitterness and jadedness overwhelmed it...so its over...for good...he can have his lonely, impoverished bitterness he clings so hard to.....he is beyond help...sad...but that's life..you can only do so much......on a lighter note..I have tomorrow off...mlk day as it happens.....what a nice surprise!  My employer decided to be open Saturdays and closed only on Sundays...she will be there alone on Mondays so we'll only be closed one day a week....good thinking!  I don't really have plans tomorrow....just lay low......today however..i need to go to Ace Hardware, and the dollar stores...I want to browse at Ace, haven't been able to do so in a long time......its still a bit too cold to do anything outside..buts its getting nicer, slowly but surely......I'm still thinking about what to do with my Amiga and c64...maybe I'll build a custom desk and hutch for it..I don't know yet......I got a cool new laserdisc the other day..and yes, it happens to be new......it was still sealed in plastic from the factory! still had the original price tag on it to! 39.95!!!!! gees!!!!!! of course, that was from the late 90's sometime..it was lawnmower man unrated directors cut! not available on DVD or blue-ray yet, as far as i could tell...it covers two discs! can't wait to watch it....! I also got a new toy! of sorts! a 60 disc CD changer.....can't wait to play with that either..i even splurged a bit and got an ancient CD from 1984! Queensryche the warning......it has take hold of the flame on it..my favorite Queensryche song..or at least one of them......other than that..not a whole lot going on..oh..almost forgot....i decided to say "eh, what the fuck!" and bought a couple boxes of dot matrix, fan fold printer paper.....we had three boxes collecting dust at the store, and i found out that our cost sky rocketed on that stuff..so i bought it at the old, 5 or so years ago cost......I still have my star nx-1000 II multifont printer from my past Amiga days, and if i do set up my Amiga, I'll need a printer....and that paper is probably getting harder to find.....so i grabbed it..i may just get the other box next month..... its still in the truck, I've got to put it away today.....keep it on the shed for the time being...speaking of which.....i think its time for another mass cleaning and reorganization party! probably tons of shit i can throw out......it seems, the more time goes by, the more irrelevant a lot of my crap becomes......springtime project perhaps...........until next time.....

OUT WITH THE OLD...HELLO 2013!

well well, we managed to get through 2012....mayan non-apocalypse and everything! looking forward to 2013? perhaps......we shall see what transpires......its possible..i might get a wii-u this year..maybe..depends on what i learn about the new zelda..and possible new mario game....more than likely, i will end up owning a ps3 this year.....i'm pretty sure the new zelda wont be out until late 2014......so a ps3 may be first......assuming sony gets their head out of their asses and lowers the prices.....if the ps4 comes out later this year that may just happen....ive noticed a few blogs go over what happened the previous year, i wont do that......nothing all that exciting..except the fact, last month, i got a new employer, and a raise of sorts! so that was the change i was feeling all year and before.....hmmm.......until next time...